posted by on 05/22/2012 | 140 comments (leave one of your own)

Last Wednesday, my best, most awesome friend passed away in a car accident. She left behind three beautiful children.

I can’t even begin to describe what a mix of sadness, anger, and disbelief this week has been.

I can tell you that later this morning, I will put on a purple dress, Jamie’s favorite color, and stand up in front of the chapel and speak about my friend. I have been praying I can make it through all of my words.

I can also tell you I miss her dearly.


  • my favorite and my best- MFAMB to you

    this is why i have a REALLY hard time believing in god and all the bullshit that surrounds faith.

    i am so sorry.

  • Jade @ Tasting Grace

    Oh….hon. I’m so, so sorry for your loss. It’s so crazy how the world can shift and break, split in half down the center like that in just the fraction of a moment. I’m so sorry for her family and I wish there were any words that don’t sound totally banal at a time like this. Just know I’m thinking of you.

  • Liz

    So, so sorry. My prayers are with you and with her family.

  • Stephanie Precourt

    Oh Zakary. I am so so sorry. I don’t know what to say so I”ll probably say the wrong thing but my close friend just lost her best friend, mom to two beautiful girls, in a car accident a few weeks ago. If there’s anything I can do over here, let me know. So many hugs for you and her family.


  • Caitlin

    I have never commented before- but have been a reader for a long time. My heart aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss. Just remember when you are up giving your speech that she is there with her hand on your back getting you through. Also, remember that it is okay to be sad/angry/frustrated, for as long as you want. I will pray for you and her family.

  • Jamie

    I am so sorry for your loss. The loss of such a dear friend is so tragic – I am praying for you and for her family.

  • Kate

    I’m so sorry. I will be thinking of you all.

  • Jennifer Jo

    Crushing. My heart goes out to you, dear one.

  • Issa

    I’m so sorry friend. Huge hugs.

  • Caroline

    Oh, Zdub, I am so very sorry to hear of this. My thoughts are with you and your friend’s family.


  • Stef

    The words don’t even come close to adequate but I am so very sorry for the loss of your great friend. I’m praying for you and those adorable kids.

  • Petunia Face

    Oh fuck. There are no words, just a torque of the gut. I am so sorry for your loss, and for that beautiful family. Thinking of you.

  • Paige

    So sorry for your loss. Wishing you strength and peace.

  • Deb

    I’m so sorry, Zakary. So Sorry.

  • Kate S.

    I’m so sorry, Zdub. I thought of you last night and wondered where you’d been, hoping everything was alright. Obviously, it was not. I’m so sorry, for everyone involved.

  • kellee

    I am rarely a commenter (though always a reader), but I just wanted to say that I am so, so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you, your family, and hers.

  • Gini

    I am so horribly sorry. This kind of bullshit is NOT. FUCKING. FAIR.

  • Uncle Beefy

    So, so sorry at this tragic loss. Heart breaking. You and her family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Tawny

    My mother recently lost her best friend and it was gut wrenching to watch her speak in front of everyone. I went out that day and bought her something pretty.

    So sorry for your loss, her family is in my thoughts.

  • Krëg

    Sh!t. Thoughts and prayers for y’all.

    In the darkness, it’s hard to see if there is a silver lining. Someday, the light will come.

  • demi

    I am so unbeilavabely sorry. There are really no words I can say to you to make you feel better-just know that alot of people are thinking of you and her family. Looks like she was an amazing mother, and super happy. Her children are beautiful.

    big hugs.

  • Sarah

    Thoughts & prayers headed your way, ma’am.

  • lbterp

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I will keep her family, and you, in my prayers.

    And as someone who has gone through this recently, let me just say, it doesn’t matter if you get through all your words. It just matters that you stand up.

  • JC

    This is very rough territory, indeed. I’ll pray for all her family and friends.

  • Karen

    That sucks… and it seems so unfair.

    I’m so sorry for your loss, and for the loss those children have suffered. I’ll keep you all in my prayers.

    • tk

      really? “sucks” poor word choice. This goes way beyond “sucks”

      • Karen

        Yes, well… I think that’s evident. But thanks for your input.

  • Lori

    I’m so sorry for your loss – may you find some peace in this tragedy.

  • Lori

    What a beautiful photo of your friend and her children. I am glad for you both that you were friends. Peace to you.

  • KB

    Thinking of you today, I hope it went well this afternoon. What a tragedy.

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  • Michelle

    Oh Z, there are no words. Thinking of you.

  • ed

    Love and support to you and Jaime’s family.

  • Jules

    This is a nightmare, and I’m sorry you and everyone involved have to live it. My heart goes out to you and the family. (Those poor children!) 🙁

  • Lacey

    Oh, Zakary, I’m so sorry. That is awful. My heart goes out to you and her family (especially her kiddos).

  • Lisa E

    I’m sorry, friend. I lost a friend last year to cancer and I know how much you are hurting. It’s not fair, it’s not right. Take care of yourself. You are loved.

  • Regina

    My heart hurts for you and those 3 precious kiddos. What a tragedy-

  • Riann

    So sorry.

  • shannon

    i am so so sorry for your loss.

  • merlin513

    That’s horrid news…so sorry for the loss of someone who made a difference in your life and those she left behind. May she live on in happy memories forever!

  • Becky (Princess Mikkimoto)

    I am so so sorry for you and her family and friends. Terrible.

    Hugs to you!

  • Melissa

    Absolutely devastating. My heart goes out to you and to her family.

  • Nanette

    So tragic. Sending so much love to you, yours, and her beautiful family.


  • Misty

    Made me shed a tear and I didn’t even know her. Heart breaking. God has his reasons. Stay strong!

  • Briana

    So sorry for your loss, Zakary.

  • Michelle

    I’m so sorry. 🙁

  • Kerry

    I am so sorry for your loss. I’ll be keeping her family and yours in my thoughts.

  • leathermangirl

    It’s not fair, and I’m so very sorry. Hugs from afar.

  • Rachel

    This post gave me goosebumps. I am so sorry to hear about your best friend. My heart, prayers and positive jujus go out to you, her family and her three beautiful children.


  • Elaine

    My heart aches for you and all who loved her. I’m so very sorry for your loss, my friend. Much love and prayers for you all…

  • nina

    I am so sorry. I can’t imagine what you are going through.

  • Cathy Tibbles

    Oh Zak,
    I’m so sorry! There is nothing like a good friend. Nothing at all. And to lose one… I’m just so sorry.{{{{Zak}}}}

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